Save me from the dark

Before it gets over my heart

Save me from the night

That I’m not able to fight.

Save from the life

From I always want to hide

Save me from the crowd

Which always was too loud.

Find me in the middle of the night

Shivering helpless without a sight

Help me to find the things I’ve lost

So I’d stop acting like a ghost.

Find me before it gets too late

Before I lose all of my faith

Don’t let go, never leave

Please stay and ease my pain.

”How should I help” you ask slowly

”If I can’t even reach you truly?

You’re always so distant, so far away…

How should I keep that never was able to stay?”

I want to scream, I want to cry

How would you know if you won’t even try?

But the words won’t leave my lips

My hands curling into fists.

”It’s fine.” I say sounding so calm

”It’s true you say that I’m too cold

Maybe this was just wrong from the start…”

The words die, I’m falling apart.

”Yes, maybe it was you know

Maybe I’m not the one who can reach you whole.”

Then you let my hands go and shy

”I don’t even know why I thought you were mine.”

My blood freezes at your words

I can’t stay here any longer

It’s so hard

It hurts…

I’m losing you

With every breath I take

Can’t keep you

No matter how I pray.

There was my chance

To make everything right

To find a way to happiness

To know what it would be like.

To know what love means

To know what it holds

To know what it brings

To have you this close.

But I chased you away

From fear that you’ll leave one day

Hurting me with your love

That was never true anyway.

And now you left me here

Cause I were afraid of a fear

Afraid of something to come

Now caused only by me.

”How ironic, isn’t it?”

I ask myself lamely

I thought you would do it

And it was me who made it.

So as you turn and leave me alone

I can’t see, can’t speak a tone

My legs gave out, I sink to my knees

”Why is it so hard, why can’t I find peace?”

So now it’s again me

And no one else

Me without love

Me without help.