Sometimes I want to die

Want to leave this world

Leave all this madness behind

So it will no longer hurt.

I’d be free from all the things

I was never able to learn

Like love and happiness

That never would reach my world.

And you could say

That I’m a coward

That I can’t even try and fight

Just escape when life’s too hard.

And I’d accept it

It’s true I know it is

But it’s still my so called life

With I do what I please.

So would it be better

If I cut my throat

And pass away like this

Without a further note?

Or would it be better

With a drop of poison now

That would kill me slowly

Like I lived so far?

But… of course I won’t do it

None of these truly

I will live like this

This thought chasing me through it.

So now you can say

That I’m afraid

I can’t live my life whole

And can’t die for heaven’s sake.