Ghost of my life

”Who are you, you ghost?

Who’s haunting me now?

Who are you, who are you?

Tell me, tell me now.”

”I’m your only friend

I’m your only hope

I don’t want to be here

But you’re sick of being alone.”

”Who asked you to come and save me?

I never did, leave me alone…”

”You don’t need to ask stupid human

I come freely, I don’t need your call.”

”But I don’t want you here…

I’ve just made my choice

I will do what I want

Just once in my life… go.”

”You think so?

No you don’t.

They chased you here to do this

Why’s this so important to you?”

”But… but I thought I’d be free…”

”Well, you can think what you want.”

”But this was my only hope…”

”Yeah, doesn’t it just suck?”

”You stupid little man

You thought this will heal you?

That if you kill yourself now

Anyone will miss you?”

”You thought there will be people

Crouching by your grave

Mourning your name

Like they knew you anyway?”

”Stop it!  Stop it!

I can’t take it… please…”

”Why are you pleading?

It’s just the truth I say.”

”The truth of your life

And everyone’s in this world.

I’m the voice of the Dark,

Shadowed noise of Hurt.”

”You are all so fucking scared

So very dramatic

You act like you’re the centre of life

But you’re nothing but lunatics.”

”Thanks so much

For this little advice, mate.

But you know what?

You’re a little late.”

”Where were you

For the last year or so?

When you didn’t see me

Suffering and crying alone?”

”Where were you

While I was sleeping on the floor?

Where were you

While I was weeping like a doll?”

”Where were you

When everyone left me?

Where were you then?

Tell me now, tell me!”

”You know nothing about me

And you have no right to decide

If I’m doing the right thing

Or just escape this hellride.”

”And if you think you could do this better

Then come here and let’s change lifes

I will stand there and give speeches

About how lunatic you are.”

”You could do what I did so far

Going around in circles like a fool…

You will enjoy this without a doubt

What’s wrong don’t you just love to?”

”How funny you became

On the edge of death now.

But why am I holding you back?

Jump if you so want to die.”

”Thanks for nothing…” I reply grimly

Looking at nothing, releasing the railing

”Funny” I think as I finally reach my goal

”It wasn’t so hard, was it?

Why haven’t I done this before?”